At church, Pastor preached about Hagar. Hagar was Sarah's maidservant whom was given to Abraham to birth a child, and she bore Ishmael. The events that followed that truly was not her fault because she was called to be a servant to them.
Wherefore she said unto Abraham, Cast out this bondwoman and her son: for the son of this bondwoman shall not be heir with my son, even with Isaac. And the thing was very grievous in Abraham's sight because of his son.
Hagar probably saw a future of some sort with Abraham and her son, but it was cut very short. As her and her son went into the desert, she left her son under bushes to basically die because of their lack of resources. God heard the cries of her son and her cries as well. There was a lot of pain in her cry. One so powerful it reached Heaven. As the story continues, God opens her eyes and she sees a well to drink from and Ishmael grows to be a prosperous man.
Who Is Your Cry Reaching?
At one point, I gave up praying for our babies, but how can God see my efforts by giving up? Some situations are out of our hands, but if our weapon is prayer...We must use it! I ran across a song by Smokie Norful called No Greater Love and this song catapulted me into praise and worship. He sings about how good God has been to him and how there is no greater love than that of Jesus! At the end of all, Jesus loves me enough to answer. But truly, He has brought me through so much so far...I poured my heart out to God. "Lord, you did it for Jodi and Porshe, you did it for the Shunammite woman, Hannah and Sarah...I am no different!"
"YOU ARE NO RESPECTER OF PERSONS...PLEASE GOD...PLEASE DO NOT FORGET ABOUT ME"
Pastor topped of his sermon with telling us all to complain to God, let it all out and do not hold on to anything. For me, I have to let God know how I feel about infertility. I mean, come on...infertility is not God's creation. He is the One who said "be fruitful and multiply". However, we live in a messed up world. We are to lay it ALL out and not hold on to any of it. We cannot hold on to hurt and expect healing. I have learned that from past trials.
So, I want to encourage you to pour out your heart to God. Are you desiring a husband or wife? Do you desire a baby? Let God know!