He allowed the pain sin caused to push Him to display the greatest form of love this world will ever see! He died for you and I so that we might be saved. There will never be any other love greater.
When you are wondering when you will hold your baby, head down and tears falling...Remember that when Jesus' head finally went down it was only after He fulfilled what He came to earth to do. Three days later, He rose. He made a way!
You will hold your baby(ies), but until that beautiful day...Rejoice! Know that you are right where you are supposed to be. Use your pain to push you to work onto the Kingdom. Pour into someone else while you have the chance. God knows your babies birth day so rest.