Last night I felt the need to speak on friendships and figured what better way to get this message across than to blog about it. Proverbs 18:24 hints at who a friend should be "A man who has friends must himself be friendly, But there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother" (NKJV). I have learned a lot of "friendship" lessons along my journey. I have learned that real friends do not always speak daily and a best friend can only be found in Jesus.
Since the start of our infertility journey, I have met two ladies (Porshe and Jodi) who were also at one point at the brink of infertility. I met these ladies on Glow which is an app to help a woman monitor her cycles and ovulation. There are communities of women who are trying to conceive and this is where I met these two ladies.
We have never met in person...but we have definitely met in spirit. Last year in 2016, we were believing God for all of our pregnancies. We constantly uplifted one another. There was a time when I broke away from the group. But I came back. We cried together, laughed together, were frustrated together and to this day...We still do the same! One day we will all meet and when we do...What an exciting day that will be!!!
In August of 2016, we got the great news that Jodi was pregnant and then the following month, we received news that Porshe was pregnant. Jodi and Porshe...gosh I could feel their hearts believing God that I would be right behind them. Here we are in 2017 and Jodi welcomed her beautiful baby girl March 3rd and we will welcome Porshe's beautiful baby girl in May!
Then I have Shelby, DeLisa and Laura. Laura is married with 3 beautiful girls, DeLisa is married with a beautiful little girl and Shelby is soon-to-be Mrs. (my sister-in-law). These ladies have gone out of their way to pray for me. Cried with me and loved on me during this whole thing.
As for me, I do not go through those same emotions. I cried my last hurtful cry in January. It is not because the desire is gone, but I had to come to grips with how perfect God's timing is. I was asked this question, "If you never became pregnant again, would Jesus still be enough?" It's easy to blurt out "Yes" because it sounds right, but it is another thing to mean it when you say "Yes".
Jesus is more than enough, but if He gives us the desires of our hearts here, surely my friend Jesus will answer. So, my heart is thankful. I am thankful for this process, my husband, and all of our supportive friends.