I want to introduce you all to my little blessing, Kaleb Brown. I cannot imagine my life without him! I remember as if it were yesterday when I discovered he was a part of my world.
It was November 2008 and I realized that Aunt Flow had not shown up and a cousin of mine told me to take a pregnancy test. I did and surely I was...Pregnant! I was 22 years old, in a very unstable situation, and two months prior I had just given my life to Christ.
August 2008, I visited a friends church and that is where I learned about the rapture and Jesus coming for those who had chosen Him as their Lord and Savior...Can I just tell you that I was not at all living right at that time. I was trying to fill a void by interacting in sexual relations with my soon to be baby's daddy. However, that particular day on a beautiful August morning, I chose Jesus.
Gosh, but it is so important to be in fellowship with other believers because no sooner as I left the church, I was back in the bed with that guy because he said "One more time will not hurt you". Oh but it did more than that...It transformed my life forever! Deep inside I wanted to do right by Jesus. Shortly after falling back, I discovered I was 5.5 months pregnant.
This was also the first time I had heard God speak to me. He asked, "Are you going to choose Me or him?" and my answer came from within because I chose him. After all, I could actually see him, right? Well, a few months later and a positive pregnancy test at the Dr. proved that I would definitely be in it alone. His response after removing his headphones were "Is 'it' mine?" I remember rolling my eyes as we left the Dr and when I was dropping him home he said "You need to get an abortion..."
Long story short, I chose to keep my baby. I re-chose Jesus, and I chose to cut him off. I welcomed Kaleb in July 2009. It was not necessarily love at first sight because I was afraid and I thank God for my mother being with me during that time. She told me to talk to him and I asked her, "What am I suppose to say to him?" She told me to say nice things.
Fighting for Kaleb was the best thing I could have done. Four years after having Kaleb I was given full custody and less than a year later we moved to Texas during the summer of 2014. Shortly, thereafter, we met Errick and here we are today. Errick never calls Kaleb "step-son", he has graciously taken on the role of father for Kaleb. Kaleb is "our" son, not my son. That alone means so much to me. The Lord made a way not just for me, but for Kaleb.
The scripture I held on to during that time was Matthew 6:33
It goes on to say Do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will worry about its own things...(Matt. 6:34 NKJV)...So each day I held on to that promise because my tomorrow's were out of my hands and today's were enough in itself!